12/24/2019
People shift from realities to realities.
* Strangers come up to me and swear they know me. Swear it. But I tell them I’m not the One they’re looking for.
* Wife and daughter recently disappeared at a fair. I searched everywhere, wondered where they wandered, until they suddenly reappeared?
I understand that many ideas I’ve proposed are quite implausible to believe, especially when you consider the narrative that’s presented as “possible.”
However, I know that I am not aIone.
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2/20/2001
Thoughts:
What the f***?
My mind feels like Jello.
Where’s the motivation or inspiration?
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20 YEARS LATER…
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2/20/2021
Experience:
I’m doing the dishes and I see through the window that wife, daughter, son and The Goldendoodle Prince (TGP) are conversing with a neighbor.
After I finish rinsing, I step outside and greet the woman. I offer a hand and say, “What’s up, I’m David.”
“Oh, I don’t know if I shook hands with everyone,” she says.
The woman then provides her name and insists that we already met. She shares how we talked for some time during a soccer game at the field down the street. She insists Kilo (TGP) was at my side at the time.
Due to her persistence, I smile and nod while knowing I don’t remember meeting her — ever. Yes, I’ve taken Kilo to the soccer field many times, but I’ve never conducted a stop and chat with any single soul while there, and I’ve never been at the field while any soccer game was taking place.
Sometimes we place our faces in the strangest spaces.
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7/30/1999
Brother and I watched [The Blair Witch Project] at The Tower Theatre in Sacramento, California.
He and I exited the movie and we questioned how the movie’s start time, runtime, end time, and the clock’s current time could not & would not align.
We agreed that a time shift occurred.
Get over it.
Shift happens.
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20 YEARS LATER…
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7/30/2019
Dream:
I was finding a place to fit.
I remember trying to help someone else and others.
Thoughts:
My body is empty this morning… in the physical sense.
I am doing my best to remember Why I’m here as I wake up this morning.
But I am grateful for everything that my body resonates because I am making mySelf an astute and beautifully vibrational Being.
I am growing and I am grateful to be in sync with Spirit.
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12/8/2000
Dream:
I could fly throughout the whole night.
It was winter and I was near ice and trees. I was like Superman helping save people.
There was a competition between me and someone evil. I am pretty sure I won, and there was a billiards game involved.
There was also a girl who I loved. Her face is so dark. I cannot remember what she looks like but I can remember the feeling of Love between us.
I guess I will have to wait until I slumber once again to know that feeling again.
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18 YEARS LATER…
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12/8/2018
Dream:
I needed to remember different pieces of an event or time so I could move forward.
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5/7/2019
Experience:
A woman approaches me in the hallway outside of the hotel’s conference rooms.
“You did a great job,” the woman says.
My head tilts to gesture my miscomprehension.
Her eye lids squint.
“I’m sorry, you may be mistaking me for someone else,” I say (while knowing that no other bald man with spectacles has presented thus far).
She looks at me oddly and says, “Didn’t you…?”
“I am scheduled to speak tomorrow,” I say.
Perplexion is her new complexion.
No more words are exchanged.
We part ways.
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4/2/2001
Timestamps:
8:42am
Daydreams turn to nightmares in slumber.
Is that the outcome for most who fall?
8:48am
The images in mind are transformed to pages through time.
But why must this Aries absurd make any sense through words?
These are not meant for others to enjoy or fret over.
They’re to release the tension and emotions that cage me.
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16 YEARS LATER…
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4/2/2017
Dream:
Gifts were hidden in the house.
The game was to have everyone find the gifts before they exploded (including the kids).
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12/5/2019
Experience:
My Return key on my 1-year-old MacBook is malfunctioning. It’s been doing this for a few days, and reboots have not resolved this *issue.
*ISSUE: When I tap Return, the screen opens the following menu options: Scene Heading, Action, Characters
Wait, it has now started working once again as I document this mental particle.
Return is no longer malfunctioning.
I laugh.
I re-read this entry 5 days later on 12/10/2019 at 3:11pm because the Return key has returned to malfunctioning.
I search and add to this entry 1 day later on 12/11/2019 at 11:00am because the Return key has returned to working perfectly as I revisit these mental particles.
On 12/12/2019 at 6:50pm, the Return key continues to function within normal parameters.
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12/12/2019
Thoughts:
The purge continues.
Pieces of me are being put down.
Last eve, wife and I stood under the cold moon which went officially full at 12:12am.
The moonlight shines brighter and the shadows fall darker.
The man whose name means shining forest will perform his final service on 12/20/2019.
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1 YEAR EARLIER…
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12/12/2018
Dream:
I was in some kind of puzzle game house that had to be escaped.
I made it through 1 time, then started over and started going through it again(!).
Thoughts:
I am considering trying to fly out a day early to see my family and Mother a little early.
I can be selfish though.
I know who I am.
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12/13/2018
Dream:
I remember something but now it’s on the edge of my memory.
Thought:
Mother’s tumors are shrinking.
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1 YEAR LATER…
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12/13/2019
Thoughts:
Today is Friday the 13th.
Do you have thoughts?
Do you have dreams?
Do we share some?
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1 HOUR LATER…
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Email / Experience:
6:31am:
FROM: Ariama Christiana
TO: David Villalva
Re: Mental Particles Vol. 2
Please don’t waste my time and yours. STOP sending me nonsense. I’ve unsubscribed so take me off your list.
Kind regards,
~ A.C.
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10 MINUTES LATER…
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6:41am:
FROM: David Villalva
TO: Ariama Christiana
Re: Mental Particles Vol. 2
If you successfully unsubscribed yourself then you should be all take care of and no longer receive nonsense. ????
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12 HOURS LATER…
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In-Person / Experience:
6:58pm:
“Do you think it’s real?” the woman asks inside the restaurant while watching the television.
“No. It’s all an illusion,” I say.
“Your food is almost ready, just one more,” the woman replies before returning to the kitchen.
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1/1/2019
Dream:
I did not remember it by the time I am writing this, but I will remember more.
I am on the path of clarity and destiny so I am lucid.
Thoughts:
I am praying for Mother and I’m thinking Happy New Year to all.
I am thinking about fixing and doing a lot of things this year.
I must make the dream a reality.
Ah, the dream is already my reality.
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1 YEAR LATER…
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1/1/2020
I have spoken to many people and asked them what they think about the many elements impacting the grid.
It seems the general consensus is that a reboot is required in order to begin anew.
So the overall agreement is a game over must be met, with everything collapsing, before we can rebuild again?
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1/2/2019
Dream:
I was trying to text myself a message.
A bunch of people were gathered at a grassy area next to the Bel Air near my mother’s house. It had been remodeled.
I said to a guy I’d been trying to face that we were here to “run interference.”
Gary Vaynerchuk said I was wrong.
I said to Gary, “Okay, we’re here to play a game and we often play a role that runs interference.”
Gary seemed to like that.
Thoughts:
I woke up thinking about past mistakes.
I prayed for them all to work out okay, mainly for others to be okay.
I still search.
I see myself but then I don’t.
I forget from one moment to the next.
I needed it but didn’t…
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1 YEAR LATER…
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1/2/2020
Download:
“Messages are connected through One in the sun.”
I heard these words as I stargazed by day (stared at the sun) for an abnormally long timeframe.
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1/4/2019
Dream:
A salesman was trying to hard sell a new truck to Pop and it was driving me nuts. The sales person kept making him feel like my Pop would be an idiot to not buy the truck.
I then began to position the deal as though it would be nuts for the sales person to not buy the truck himself because he could flip it for profit and make some real money.
I could not stand the sales person.
Thoughts:
I wake up at 4:30am to use the restroom and I am stressed about work.
I must transmute this energy into positivity to create my new life.
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1 YEAR LATER…
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1/4/2020
Transmutation:
I breathe deeply.
Inhale.
Exhale.
“What are you doing?” wife asks.
“I’m changing some energy,” I say.
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3/8/2001
Thoughts:
8:11am
They nicknamed me “Lil Devil” cuz that’s what’s in my eyes.
But see, the devil, that’s who I despise.
Do I cause more pain than good upon this world?
1,000 sorries and I pay a thousand fold in redemption.
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20 YEARS LATER…
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3/8/2021
Knowing:
Lil Devil already died so no more lies.
It’s done so let’s return to real eyes.
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